The truth is…(insert hesitation face showing full teeth grin Imoji)
The truth is I opened a piece of mail tonight because it said urgent and it was a disconnect notice from the electric company. Oops. I really thougth autopay was set up on all bills, because Lord knows I need autopay in my life. I get snail mail, and unless it’s handwritten in a pink envelope, it goes into a dreaded “look at when you’re not being social” pile. But hey, I paid my bill just in the nick of time, set up autopay, and learned that I’m at 314kWh, which is below my efficient neighbors at 321kWh. Thank you LED can lights, thank you. Ehem…some neighbors are at 701kWh. I’m guessing a few of those neighbors are in Jansen Place with a tv in every room, and heated beds for their pets.
The truth is, I visited my therapist yesterday, (who kindly dismissed me several months ago), because I needed to check in. And I’m so glad I did. Things like, are you being your confused self, who acts out of “this looks good,” or are you being your chosen self, which acts out of great intention toward your main goals to live an authentic life. So I re-evaluated my #lifegoals and am feeling so much better. Amazing what a bit of “checking in” will do. This morning I read my book of common prayer and it’s like God is saying…I want to make this easier for you…but you must put forth some effort.
The truth is, I love to have fun and that word is up there on the most used words in my brain-space. Fun. I want to have it myself and create it for everyone around me. If someone else is creating it for me, they go way up there on my list of awesome people in life. Then there are all of those other good people who are loyal, peaceful, driven, laid back, or just plain cool.
The truth is, I love people. I’m noticing that so much lately, with more time rolling straight solo or being solo with my kids. I am not one who needs hours of self time in order to have people time. Its a lesson I’m learning…the art of being alone.
The truth is, I didn’t set up my electricity autopay yet, because I opened a blog tab and got distracted. Double oops. I’m going to say goodbye now and do that so I don’t get another warning note. Would hate to wake up Christmas morning with the Christmas lights not able to illuminate on the tree.
P.S. This photo was from one of the more fantastic weekends I’ve had in a while with the dearest gal in Durham, NC.